>happy new year!

>will be outta here anytime soon, will go to new mexico for a trip with the family 🙂 can’t wait! anyway, as promised, i’m ending the year with abbie’s survey thingie.

enjoy y’all!

what did you do in 2004 that you’d never done?

i moved in to a new place by myself.

did you keep your new years’ resolutions, and will you make more for next year?

i don’t even remember making any! haha!

did anyone close to you give birth?

nah, didn’t have any pregnant friends.

did anyone close to you die?

not really close, but my friend earlene’s husband died, seven weeks after they got married. and her mom just died last year.

what countries did you visit?

the philippines! was able to visit the PI last august, only for ten days, but worth every freakin’ minute.

what would you like to have in 2005 that you lacked in 2004?

i dunno. um, maybe a car, but then again, i don’t drive. ewan.

what date/s from 2004 will remain etched upon your memory?

hmmm… wala e. had a boring year, haha! nothing much happened.

what was your biggest achievement of the year?

knowing myself more especially after deciding to live by myself.

what was your biggest failure?

my year might have been boring, but i’m pretty happy i didn’t have big failures this year. maybe when my GPA dropped to 3.5, thanks fucking income tax, got a C.

did you suffer an illness or injury?

yeah, tonsilitis plus a fever with colds and a cough. happens every year.

what was the best thing you bought?

my notebook, i guess. i actually started the year with a new cellphone. got a great printer slash scanner slash copier, too.

where did most of your money go?

food and cds.

what did you get really, really excited about?

trip to the PI, and this trip to new mexico!

what song will always remind you of 2004?

more of what songS! lots! there’s jamie cullum’s all at sea, keane’s somewhere only we know, liz phair’s little digger and favorite, maroon5’s she will be loved… lalala….

compared to this time last year, are you:

i. happier or sadder?
happier.

ii. thinner or fatter? thinner! any objections? you want me to break my foot up your ass?

iii. richer or poorer? richer.

what do you wish you’d done more?

sleep and exercise. talk more to friends.

what do you wish you’d done less of?

loaf around.

how did you be spend christmas?

well, was at work the 24th. called up my mom so she could be with me when the clock struck midnight, christmas. slept a bit that morning, then went to my dad’s place, had fun with the kids. went home and slept again, had to work that night, too.

did you fall in love in 2004?

i wish. but then again, it’s a good thing i didn’t, i always have a hard time falling out of love e.

how many one-night stands?

none! been trying this new thing, this thing called celibacy, hahaha! almost a year now, i can’t believe i did it. can’t wait for my “anniversary”, will have sex to celebrate, haha!

what was your favorite TV program?

the ones that were ended, sadly. like sex and the city, friends, frasier…

do you hate anyone now that you didn’t hate this time last year?

i don’t hate anyone anymore. i’ve learned that hate is wasted energy.

what was the best book you read?

dan brown’s angels and demons and deception point, david hewson’s a season for the dead.

what was your greatest musical discovery?

maroon5! i remember not paying attention to them when they came out with harder to breathe. then came this love which i went gaga over, bought the cd and sang in the shower. ex-roomie heard me, like every night, and told me to listen to she will be loved. i fell in love with the song.

what do you want to get?

hmmm… a great job in denver.

what was your favorite film of this year?

kill bill vol.2! and the dreamers.

what did you do on your birthday and how old were you?

i turned 23 this year. me and jess went out that night, i think, or maybe the other night, i’m not sure. see, jess’ birthday is five days after mine, so we just had a great breakfast at denny’s around two in the morning.

what one thing would have made your year immeasurably more satisfying?

this trip probably, and the visit in the philippines, of course.

how would you describe your personal fashion concept in 2004.

iba iba e. had business-like attires every now and then, mainly because i’m in the business school. i tend to dress down, too, especially in art class.

who/what kept you sane?

the past six months? art class.

which celebrity/public figure did you fancy the most?

kiera knightley.

what political issue stirred you the most?

US election, of course, and to all americans out there, i’m sorry bush won. we are all fucked for the next four years.

who do you miss?

i have a long list.

who was the best new person you met?

not really met, but maya angelou. she was in my college this year.

tell us a valuable life lesson you learned in 2004:

that i should always feel short next to the towering height of my ambitions, that i am small next to the coloradan mountains, and that i should always give faith a fighting chance.

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>next year, jamie cullum

>next year,

things are gonna change,

gonna drink less beer

and start all over again

gonna pull up my socks

gonna clean my shower

not gonna live by the clock

but get up at a decent hour

gonna read more books

gonna keep up with the news

gonna learn how to cook

and spend less money on shoes

pay my bills on time

file my mail away, everyday

only drink the finest wine

and call my gran every sunday

resolutions

well baby they come and go

will i do any of these things?

the answers probably no

but if there’s one thing, i must do,

despite my greatest fears

i’m gonna say to you

how i’ve felt all of these years

next year, next year, next year

i gonna tell you, how i feel

well, resolutions

baby they come and go

will i do any of these things?

the answers probably no

but if there’s one thing, i must do,

despite my greatest fears

i’m gonna say to you

how i’ve felt all of these years

next year, next year, next year

>one is the loneliest number

>i’m lonely. no, i’m not, i just like the statement. i’m not trying to end the year in a sad note, i’m actually thinking of copying abbie‘s survey post to cap the year.

but back to “i’m lonely”. i like the statement because it kinda announces itself. it does not require an explanation. it’s not like “i’m in love” which follows “with who?” or “i’m happy” which follows “why?”

“i’m lonely”. lonely. lone. alone. “i’m lonely because i am alone.” see my point? when someone says “i’m lonely”, it states silently that it is because s/he is alone.

i think anything positive (e.i. “i’m in love” and “i’m happy”) requires reinforcements. they need statements to quantify and qualify the happiness or the being-in-love-ness. but being lonely says it all. it does not require follow up questions, but rather emotions of sympathy or pity.

sigh. i love being a linguist. also dark humor.

>merry christmas!

>

had christmas at my dad’s place, and the highlight of course is the gift opening.

saul was pretty much psyched with what i got him. got him some yugi-oh trading cards which is his current obsession right now (notice the red marks on his cheek? iya gave him those!):

angel started with her fake nails set slash make up set thingie which she got from her mom. understand that them are the only two girls in the family, haha! got her an art set:

iya showing off his toy trucks. got him an RC and marie called last night to tell me the batteries already ran out! and dang, could that boy drive:

marty was just happy ripping of ’em gift wrappers:

aunt berna and cheryl swung by too:

we all got robes from granma and granpa (who couldn’t make it since it was pretty darn cold for granpa). here’s me and angel switching robes, then angel showing off her purple girlie robe. all us guys got black or blue:

and don’t forget the food! everything was home made, no bought food. marie was cooking for like three days nonstop for the christmas dinner:

and marie made this great dinner table set from logs, wreaths and candles. she is like the asian martha stewart.

t’was great. ’nuff said.

>a booger story

>tried calling bibba last night while at work, but i don’t have her number. all my friends’ numbers are at home and aside from my mom’s number, the only other number i remember is hane’s place. called her place up, alisa answered (hane’s niece). was able to talk to hane for a good half an hour before she had call waiting and i was cut off (to her defense, she didn’t pick up the other line but we ended just shouting to each other, “hoy, hane! hane? hello? hane? andyan ka pa ba?”, so hell, i hung up).

the sad part of this is when i asked about the guys. apparently, they haven’t met for a while, like since-i’ve-been-home-back-in-august in a while! she told me that they tried organizing a christmas get together, but only her, bibba and leo seemed to be eager about it, so they decided to drop it.

this is so freaking frustrating! it is so reminiscent of my last visit when they told me they haven’t been together since i left the country. it was flattering when papa bidge told me that he went all the way from san pablo to meet up with us, when joel snuck out of military training school, when deej took some time out from the seminary, when leo quit his job to see us, when hane opened up the bank in a mall branch so we can hang out with her, but it ridiculous that they can’t find time to at least sent text messages to each other. hane even told me that divine, her sister slash girl friend, didn’t even text her to greet her a merry christmas! oh, divine did actually text hane to get angel’s number, but that’s it. and hane hasn’t seen angel in three months! by the way, angel completes the hitad trio – ji (that’s my hane), divineski, and angel.

sigh… maybe leo was right: i am the kulangot that binds us together.

>ho ho ho

>it’s almost christmas! wala lang, not really excited but just the idea of my bros and sis tearing up them gifts like hyenas caged for months without food then being released next to a wounded gazelle is enough happiness for me (i’m more graphic than i thought i am).

gotta work though, so i’ll just probably call up mom while at work. it’ll be slow, i’m guessing. have to work straight seven days, too. i’m kinda happy slash sad about it, but i’ll pull myself together, i’m a big boy.

side bar: was chatting with fay and made a comment, bad daw ako.

NYAHAHAHAHAHAHA – ubo – HAHAHA!

what an understatement. since birth! when the doctor slapped my ass, i slapped her back with my gooey placenta-covered hand. she had it coming.

>thoughts while listening to bush live over cnn

>i’m beginning to think that somehow, we meet the people we meet to learn a lesson and eventually lead on to our separate paths. it’s nice to know that i still learn from some friends i have since i was five. but it’s sad that the deeper and shorter friednships i’ve had seems to reached that fork of separation.

it is so predicatable: one will dare make the move, one will start the awkward conversation of semi-casualness until the awkwardness takes over. somehow, i don’t want the friendship to return. maybe i’ve already learned the lesson needed to be learned. now, it’s time to move one. even if we want to, it’ll take one day at a time, but that’s a luxury we both can’t take.